I am really sad. A little while ago something happened that changed things in my life all around and that’s been really difficult, and I am still not over it. I have some new friends who are trying to be there for me though this and now I am worried because they are expressing feelings for me I do not reciprocate and it looks like they too may be starting to have a harder time with it then I am able to help. I am not sure what to do I am really having a hard time with everything, and this on top of everything else is just really upsetting. I don’t know how else to make things right anymore I have been honest and they understand how I feel, just little things are showing me this may become and big problem and I am not sure how to handle it. I am not sure why I am putting this in my dA journal, not all the info is there so I know its hard for anyone reading to really understand all the details evolved but I hoped maybe there is some advise I could be given. I am just tired of losing everyone I care for and being powerless to stop it.